hahas, inspirations from bus rides, rainy days, starry nights and the fond(maybe not exactly font) memories of my life:D
have always kept them in my phone, but cant believe i actually forgot to post them!!!
OH! if u find them really familiar, dont fret, it just means u've seen them somewhere before(ok, dont make any sense -__-lll ) no lah, it just means you've seen my 处女作品:) -->it means first draft, pls dont 想歪歪...:) well, here goes:

Drabs of sunlight
seeped through the curtains
and onto a cheerful face--- a bright, young lad.

Fingers smooth over the creases
sending wave-like ripples
through the long, flowing cloth.

A curb pull
a tiny screech escaped
the curtains drawn--- an abrupt ending.

A soft yawn let out
of her cool red lips
only softness against the hard warm rays.

A honest gaze held
to the far away future
certainity mirrored deep in her eyes.

But outside
in the hot arid land
beggers littered at every turn
and certainly
none are even certain of any moment of their lives.
oh! this was written during LA lecture like 2 months ago,hehe!!! i was multi-tasking k, so i WAS paying attention:)

Just how many times have we endured the cold stares of despising eyes, though no fault on our own; tried our very best only to find that failure had once again caught up with us; actually relished the idea of crying silently at night where only the moonlight know of our sorrows; wandered aimlessly amidst the looming buildings after time yet time of rejections; been manipulated like puppets, dangling precariously by life's cruel jokes; bounded by the chains of miserable twisted fate, deprived of all love and hope; felt tempted by the dangerously  sweet offers of the death god; stared at the vast universe and questioned the meaning of our very existence; started fading into the darkness, emptying our souls into the sea called fogetfulness...Perhaps, right now, life had not echo our wishes and desires. But always remember that we've yet to discover nor experience, so please dont stop believing in yourself. Only you can change your life for the better. Fighting!!!
Sounds familiar? hahas, more appropriate to say that i was trying to encourage and comfort myself, rather than anyone^_^

LISTEN! The wind--- it's howling softly, carrying its secret to a faraway place.
LOOK! The sea that once sparkled with tiny golden jewels in the backdrop of the setting sun, now appeared dull and lifeless, watching wearily as invaders trampled on its beautiful face.
SMELL! The fallen trees lay wasted, life-bearing sap slowly leaking out, as their pleas drowned in the midst of ash and smoke.
REALISE! Even the once blue sky has lost its unique touch while years of abuse left behind scars of its unglorified victory.
CAN'T WE SEE:? These are sure signs of something gone awry, but why do we still choose to walk in the path of impending doom?
Perhaps, our ancestors were right: It's never too late to turn back. If we have the heart to understand, they'll tell us all that we need to know...
Everyone, though it might be quite stupid to say this, but please go green, please remember your 3Rs, please cherish the beautiful paradise you have right now...

寂静的夜晚
我披着月光躺在床上
怎么也睡不着


想开灯赶走床边
橱门前和地上那
虎视忱忱的阴暗
但却怎么也做不到


生怕只要那么轻轻的一动
黑暗的恶魔将找上门来
取走我所剩不几的胆量


只要那么一起身
就被那黑暗给吞噬
永远也醒不过来


想着想着
便越害怕
越睡不着


只见自己紧闭双眼
紧张的憋住气
一人躲进被窝里


开始胡思乱想
哎，看来今天我又要和
星星一同守夜了。。。
well, written when i couldnt fall asleep some night...many thanks to those who had accompanied me that beautiful night, TYTY:D

瞧街上那在雨中独自嬉戏的小女孩！可爱的脸庞透过晶莹的雨滴犹如太阳般焕发着光芒。笨重的雨衣随着她那蹦蹦跳跳得身躯只能轻轻的摆动。只见她一会儿右跳跳左跳跳，一会儿又踮起脚跟快活的就地旋转，再最后便干脆仰起身子向上跳跃。那一瞬间，她仿佛成了知小燕子，没多大功夫，身子已在半空中勾起美丽的弧线。随之才轻轻的落地，溅起脚边仅剩的水洼，打湿在雨衣角。她自由自在，毫不顾虑周边的任何事物；仿佛全世界只围绕着她那么一个人。。。如今，这小女孩已在人群中迷失了，然而只要碰上那美丽动人的雨天，我便能听到她那耳熟的欢笑声。你是否也听得见？
i was very happy when MHM could actually understand this poem:) yup yup, the little girl is actually...meeee(well the past me...) and i was like looking back into my childhood when i was still a pure little angel living in her own paradise. sometimes, i really wish that i can just be like her: so innocent, so carefree, so happy. but i guess it's all a growing process. Not very good to keep living in the past!!! Nvm, shall keep these hidden memories in my heart. I guess my childhood was filled with 90% fond memories...Lilia, I decided liao, my chinese 笔名shall be 雨天天使^ ^


风刮了，
吹散发丝，
那阵阵微风轻吻着我
泪流满面地脸庞。


叶落了，
伸出双手，
试着捕捉那被卷走的树叶，
想找回那遗失了的美好。


天暗了，
伴随轰轰雷声，
雨珠掺杂泪水
一滴一滴打在大地，
发出沙沙之歌。


哦那雨，
犹如河流，
美妙的钻进我的心房，
滋润着我，安慰我灵。


我爱雪，更爱着雨天，但愿这场茫然大雨能一直下一直下，冲洗世上一切的伤痛，为我带来活下来的勇气。。。
cant quite remember when i wrote this, think i keyed it in my phone like a few days before EOYs or sth...but i must have been feeling very emo then...but i still like this very much. I like being emo:D it's a capricorn's priviledge(or at least my friend once told me that capricorns are usually very emo,hehe) and who dont love rain<3 not the singer lah, DUH...

下雨天，
我望出窗外，
向天祈求一个美好的今天。


黑云划过，
我仔细寻找，
你那充满阳光的熟悉身影。


雷劈了，
我沉默无语，
盼望你能抚平我心中的不安。


雨小了，
我坐在阳台，
细细品味雨嘀嗒嘀嗒的旋律。


雨停了，
我凝望那撑着伞的人群，
希望其中有一人将会是你。


彩虹出来了，
太阳也探头了，
我对你的思念却化为无声的风吹到你窗前。


但你是否也能感受到我心灵最深的祝福？
i wrote it in church on some really special Sunday(during one of the sermons, sorry Father Lord for multi-tasking once again:( ) Why special Sunday, well, cos it was raining then, and when it rains, i feel very lonely, and when i feel very lonely, i will start thinking and missing people:) though not quite sure who i actually missed when i wrote this,hahas^_^

天黑了，
雨下了，
我哭了，
但你不在了。


想起你我一切的时光，
像是旧照片般一张一张
的被翻出来，
而我心灵的痛苦也无情的涌上来，
使我窒息。


你甜美的笑，
换来了我苦涩的感叹；
你调皮的鬼脸，
不知已离我多远；
你无告的离别，
暗淡了我一生的光芒；
这是你给我的答案吗？
还是老天爷对我的恶作剧？


鼻子酸酸的，
嘴角咸咸的，
在这没有你的黑暗里，
我哭了。
I think i wrote this when i sat next to Lilia, i think. Well, dont misunderstand, it's NOT a reflection of my life hor(in case MHM 想歪歪:)), it's just that we were BORED and started writing stuff. I realised i really like writing on the themes like "love", "friendship", "my life", "family" and stuff(all revolving around love bah) hahas, I remembered during Japanese O'level, the examiner asked me what i do in CCA and i told her writing. and she asked "what topics do you like to write?" and I was like -__-^, erm, how am i supposed to answer in Japanese. and so i ended up saying "family"(well, the first thing that popped up in my head), "environment"(I guess i wrote it before) and "society"(wrote it but not quite sure if i liked it, the society's hasnt been a great place for me...) and as expected, she asked "why?"...well, i was like o.O, guess it was pretty much a disaster,haiz, poor japanese, 被我搞得面目全非:( did you know, they actually taped the whole exam, to standardise the exam i think. but i still love japanese nonetheless k:D

你曾说我是开心果，无论风吹雨打都在笑，但你误会了，我并不如你想象中的那么坚强。有一回，我哭了，你说我行为有点失常，但我多想告诉你我本是那遍体鳞伤的躯体，是你不曾发现。你说你羡慕我，羡慕我像朵小花倍受爱护与疼惜，但那只是片面观察，你根本看不清被这世界的污秽刺伤了的我。不，你是永远都无法明白的。因为在你眼里，我是那轻飘飘的云朵，无忧无虑；那清新的空气，从不被吹散；那可爱的小公主，幸福美满快乐。可我心里清楚地知道，我只不过是那沉重四处漂泊的乌云；那被暴风雨摧毁的小草；那虚假伪造自欺欺人的空壳，迷惑悲哀消极。或许是我掩饰的太好了，又或许是你不曾用心理解我，拖着一推不可告人的秘密，此时的我心里真的好重好重。。。
well, I love this poem the most cos i think it best represents my life, my fate, my destiny and my feelings for this world. hope you all like it too and really hope your life wont be as emo as mine:) think i wrote it in church too:) i hardly tell anyone my secrets, cos i always believe that "secrets are meeant to be stored, and not to be told". but still, i wonder if God heard my sorrows?



冬天的那个傍晚，
在星星的见证下，
在路灯的照耀下，
我终于在你香甜的承诺里，
安心的睡去了。


在你的怀抱里，
我告别了冬天的寒意，
拥抱着你的温度，
以赶走路途中的坎坷，
欢迎你我新生命的开始。


太阳升起的那个早晨我
在没有你的情况下醒来了，
迷迷糊糊、头脑混乱
床边的字条之告诉我
你已永远的离去了。
hahas,this poem is kinda unknown cos i dont know where i got the inspirations from. found it in my HCL notebook when i was flipping thru the pages one day:) actually, I kind of hate sad endings, but then, I do have the power to make the characters cry or smile right? so muhahahahaha, im super evil!!! They shall be manipulated by me(or more appropritely, my moodswings).

well, that's all for now:) hope you all enjoyed these:) hope to continue this next year, so Lilia and MHM, must visit my blog hor:) and Lilia, you should just make your blog public mah, how can waste your talents:)